And every magazine, Tells her she's not good enough

Joce by day,

Superjoce by night... with my trusty sidekick, Little Red Riding Hood.

Post inspired by Smallville.

Green Arrow... *drool...

So I still have a thing for cool guys with bows and arrows.

Love me, That's all I ask of you

Bliss... bliss is good.

And now to embark on my long-awaited Heroes, Smallville, Prison Break, Grey's, and CSI journey.

Supposing you'd watched the slow accretion of snow over thousands of years as it was compressed and pushed over the deep rock until the glacier calved its icebergs into the sea, and you watched an iceberg drift out through the chilly waters, and you got to know its cargo of happy polar bears and seals as they looked forward to a brave new life in the other hemisphere where they say the ice floes are lined with crunchy penguins,

and then wham!

Tragedy loomed in the shape of thousands of tons of unaccountably floating iron and an exciting soundtrack ...

... you'd want to know the whole story.

The options and possibilities, Are endless when we connect and re-align

LAST DAY TOMORROW! LAST TWO PAPERS!

Nerd talk: The correlation coefficient for the relationship between the amount of time to the end of exams and my concentration level is nearly +1.0. This shows that there is a strong, linear, positive relationship. MEANING, as it nears the end of exams, my concentration span decreses marginally. When before it was "study one chapter sleep one hour", it has now become "study 10 minutes, rest one hour". I've been occupying myself all day with manga and bits of studying in between.

And after that, it'll be fun fun fun! But before that, a massive massive packing session awaits. *sighs* AND house-hunting too. Oh dear oh dear oh dear.

Serious talk: Do employers really look at a graduate's GPA?? I'm kinda doubtful 'cause we're all gonna graduate with the same certificate anyway. AND I know of plenty who failed and resat their way through Uni but secured good jobs in the end anyway. I'm just tired of being pressured to score a high grade every time. Expectations expectations expectations. But mostly, I pressure myself. Which is highly unhealthy for my mental state. Particularly since I'm shit lazy. So when I panic, I really panic, and I literally feel like I'm going crazy most times.

Okay, so the real point is that, I'm just trying to waste time again so I don't have to get back to studying. Teehee.

I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to, It will all get better in time

Studying is starting to get to me. Another one of my numerous tendencies when I can no longer concentrate is to play Minesweeper. This being because I don't wanna feel guilty that I'm not studying when I should be, and Minesweeper "works the brain", so technically I'm not really lazing. At least that's what I try to tell myself.

And so I clicked on "start" "all programs" "games", and I started searching for..... "calculator". Took me a couple of glances up and down the list before I realised I was looking for the wrong thing. And then when I realised, I went and clicked on "accesories" "calculator", when in the FIRST PLACE, I was really wanting to play Minesweeper. -.-

Reminds me of the previous exam period. Got a bit hungry near midnight so I decided to go downstairs and grab some crackers. Not wanting to waste time while I walked downstairs and back up.... I brushed my teeth. So what was the point in getting crackers when I was brushing my teeth? Imagine how silly I felt when I got to the crackers and realised "hey I've got a toothbrush in my mouth". HAHAHA. So much for saving time. I had to brush my teeth again after consuming said crackers anyway.

Studying is not good for me.

I've also got a new Indian yuan-de-pian-de housemate. I sure hope she's okay 'cause I've heard stuff about previous Indian housemates (before I entered the house). Anyhow, not that I'm gonna be here much longer to endure the torture if she isn't nice anyway.

In case you haven't noticed, I'm trying to delay here as much as possible so I won't have to get back to studying just yet. Even if it's just meaningless rantings. Nyehehehehe.

Yohoho, and a bottle of rum!

And you know, We all want something more than just a simple life

Whoa, first Bong, now Eric's started acting in japanese movies too!

Gotta admit, he really does look like Eric, down to the hairstyle and everything. This dude's from the Zettai Kareshi drama, which is mostly nothing like the manga. Oh wellie wells. I had nothing else to watch since this was passed to me by a friend and my Internet speed's been shaped since 2 weeks ago 'cause I was super watching anime 24/7 during the first 2 weeks of quota rollover, SHO the point ish that my Internet is about (possibly less than) streamyx speed now and streaming videos online is no longer an option ('cause I'm impatient)... not till tomorrow anyway. Tomorrow = new Internet month = another 20GB at topspeed before shaping again! Aaaaaaa~lleluia.

Anyhoo, not like I can enjoy just yet. Last 2 papers on Tues. And they happen to be the most tedious 2. *sighs* Off to variables and elements and properties and javascript mishmash!

As if you're never hurt, As if you're never down

I despise law... or the study of it anyway. Despite the fact that it's gonna be an open book exam, I figured it'll be best if I at least browse through it. The problem arises, however, when the book has 1000++ pages and the words are in tiny print. I started 5 hours ago and I haven't even gotten halfway. Fun.

Apart from that, open book exams are often harder 'cause you have to know precisely where to look, and 1000 pages of gibberish (which is exactly what everything connected to law is to me) in tiny print is not fun to read during exams. The worst thing is that a lot of things in law are not definite and differ from case to case. I'm not even studying to be a lawyer, why do I have to know all this?!

GAH! Ultimate stress.

Not to mention, I haven't even started studying for javascript... which is gonna be another pimple-inducing activity, particularly 'cause I haven't been to class all sem and I so far only really know about 4 chapters out of 13.

The pains of truancy and slacking.

And maybe, You will find that there are better days

Me after the accounting paper yesterday: Depression mode.

Let me tell you why. Exams at USQ used to be 3 hours long. As of this year, they've all been cut down to 2 hours, and consequently, all the exam paper formats should have been revised to cater for the new shorter time limit. HOWEVER, my most awesomest accounting lecturer decided NOT to change the format. His response to the numerous complaints that the time given (2 hours) is simply not enough to complete the originally 3 hour paper? "At this stage, you should be able to complete it within 2 hours"

Is he shitting me?! Grrrrr. 'Tis a funny feeling... this feeling of not finishing a paper on time. I almost did. 5 more minutes and I would have. I was on my final paragraph of the essay question (the last question). Oh and my trial balance didn't balance, because there wasn't ANY time at all to stop and think during the paper. *sobz*

Now let me sit in a corner and wallow in my despair.

Apparently, most of the class didn't even get 3 quarters way through the paper, so that makes me feel an itsy bitsy bit better. Heehee.

At the start of the road, Together building castles in the air

A castle called Lestava in a land called MAR-heaven!

Anyhoo, 1 down 3 to go! Not anything to be happy about though, considering the final 2 papers are on the same day next Tuesday and they're the 2 toughest ones WHICH I haven't studied for as yet. Oh joy oh joy oh joy. -.-

I did something utterly idiotic today. I got some peanut butter and cereal from Coles ('cause during exams I don't feel like cooking so I survive on cereal and bread and soup =D) 'cause I've run out of them at home. And because after lunch I was holding my water bottle, I assumed I was holding my plastic bag of goodies. So one can only guess what the genius Joce did. She left her bag of goodies behind at the food court. Yeah, $5 down the drain. I blame stupid jap boy because he was talking so much. And stupid jap boy never realised I left my stuff behind too, ze foooool. Grrrrrr. Also because it's the first time I've had a meal out in a long loooooong time (even if it's just McD), so I was probably still in a state of delirium when I left.

Tonight you'll cry yourself to sleep, As I lay awake in some far off city

Before I forget, Stalkee No. 9:

Edit @ 9.29 p.m.: It's fairly worrying that I don't feel as panicked as I really should be considering the amount of studying I really did. Paper's at 8.30 a.m. tomorrow, I'll be on the bus by 6.40 a.m., and right now at 9.30 p.m. the night before, I've already closed all my books and turned off my lights preparing to surf the Net till I feel sleepy. I shouldn't be this relaxed, I really shouldn't.......

Is it too much to ask, Can't you just pick up the phone?

I just got a call from my classmate about getting to tomorrow's exam venue.

Him: Hey, what are you doing?

Me: Erm, studying?

Him: WHOA! OMG, you're studying?! There really is a first time for everything, huh?

Me: What's that supposed to mean?!

Him: Well, this is the first time in my whole year as your classmate that you're actually studying. Are you sure you're not lying?

Me: Erm hello, the paper is tomorrow. I know I'm lazy, but not nearly enough to wanna dig my own grave. Hehe.

Him: Okay anyway, are you taking the bus tomorrow? What time and all?

etc etc.

.......

20 minutes later...

Him: Okay, I'll be knocking on your door early tomorrow morning then! Happy studying *cough* yeahright *cough*

Damn, is it really that hard to believe that I actually DO study? Albeit a bit last-minute and all, but I do put in effort to try to study! It hurts *sobz* that people have *sobz* such little faith *sobz* in me. Lol.

Note to self: Attend classes in the future. Never study on the bed. Lock laptop up 2 weeks before exams and hide the key somewhere far from reach. Lock self up in an empty room with nothing but the appropriate textbooks and only leave the room for meals and nature breaks.

Yeah... I'm sure I'll be able to pull that off next time. Sure.....